Thursday, January 20, 2011

Righteous Fury

This has been a post that I'd been sitting on (at least, in my head) for quite some time.

All throughout last semester and into this semester, I've put for so much effort into pretty much everything. I've been able to accomplish pretty much everything I set out to do. I kept my promises and made things happen. And so when someone tells me that they want to do something but wasn't able to, I feel a pang of something akin to righteous fury.

One med student announced that she had wanted to expand a program to other high schools, especially more inner city schools. Never mind that I gave her a couple contacts that I had made at such schools that were interested in her program. That, to me, demonstrates a lack of effort or follow through. Another med student told me that she no longer wants to organize an event that she had been in charge of since day one. All because she was unable to contact a particular person. There are so many other physicians out there who can speak on the topic!!

There have been days where, either sitting in meetings with med students or at events, that I wanted to almost scream out, "Step it up! Do what you said you'd do and follow through. Take responsibility. Use your best judgment. You're going to be a doctor one day and be responsible for patients' lives."

Anyway, enough ranting on that. I've an exam next Monday on hematology. Ugh, I hate hematology with the fury of a thousand suns. Anemias, leukemias, lymphomas - they all sound the same to me, and they all have similar presentations!! For the first time, I feel like I'm actually in danger of failing an exam in med school (or otherwise doing really poorly). T.T

At least I got my 2nd choice for my M3 rotation schedule. I actually like most of the people in my track. Incidentally, my crush is in my track! o_O He's like the only guy in my class that I have an attraction to. He's also one of the nicest guys I've ever met - he always has a smile and is just a happy-go-lucky guy. Too bad he's straight and is living with is his girlfriend. ::Sigh::


naturgesetz said...

You're right about the people who don't get things done. But I think there is a large element of personality that comes into it. There are people like you who get things done, but there are a lot more, I think, who are like me, and just let things slide unless there is a deadline. What they (and I) need is to set deadlines for them/ourselves — but that's easier said than done.

What you can do to try to avoid some of the frustration is to give people deadlines and shortly before the deadline ask, "How's it going?" And if the answer is, "I haven't been able to reach Dr. X," you can say, "Well, why don't you try Y and Z? Let me know on Tuesday whether either of them can do it." I know, it's involvement that shouldn't be necessary, but it's better that screaming inwardly in frustration.

Good luck on the exam.

Earl Grey said...

Ugh... I'm usually guilty of not getting things done...

And don't u just wish the cute straight guys weren't so nice? It'd make them easier to not crush on...

Anonymous said...

Otherwise the people need to learn to say "no." That took me a little while to learn here, but I finally got it. I use it all the time. Priorities = yes; wastes of time = no. Some people don't like to hear it, but most understand that when you say "no" it means you really are otherwise occupied.

That said, I hope you do well on the exam. *hugs*

PS - By "I've an exam next Monday...", I think you mean, "I HAVE an exam next Monday..."...this isn't England young man. :P

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