Thursday, May 8, 2008

Leading Him On

It's not what you think, actually. I went to JW-M's apartment tonight around midnight. I was so tired for some reason, but I stopped by to talk for a couple minutes. After about 20 minutes of just sitting around, I got up to leave (he was working on his thesis anyway).

I mentioned that I had something to tell him, but that I'd tell him tomorrow. He was instantly piqued and wanted to know, but really I was tired and wanted to go back to my apartment. He protested and really wanted to know, saying that he'd be up till about 4am anyway. At this point I was out his door and he dashed after me.

He was like, "Will it make me sad?" No. "Will it make me happy?" Not really? I hated to do this to him, leading him on, but I did want to rest a bit.

So tomorrow (well, now today since I tend to blog so late at night) I will tell him what I've wanted to tell him for almost a year now. I've bound myself to this and I've made escape nigh-impossible. I don't know why, but it's kind of nerve-wracking when it really shouldn't be, because I'm confident of his response.

1 comment:

Hish said...

Wait you're talking about THE talk, right?

Wow I can't believe you have the courage to actually plan it in advance (kinda)... mine have always been spontaneous :O

Good luck!

(I do hope that you're thinking of doing what I think you're thinking of doing. I think)