Tuesday, April 21, 2009

To Razz - Words Unsaid

I was a "late-comer" to Razz's blog, Doin me head in. I knew him less well than many other bloggers. While I read every post and every post is still stored in my Google Reader, I never had the honor of chatting with him online or via email.

There are words unsaid - by me and by others. And Razz, I found the following poem you wrote (posted on Oct. 12, 2008) - I hope you don't mind that I re-post it as well as the pics:
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Words Unsaid

I had a million thoughts running through my head
thinking about all the words we left unsaid
somewhere in the middle of horizon's end
I'm standing all alone while my heart endlessly bled.

All the thoughts of heaven are hanging on me tonight
while the beautiful hour is nearing its final end.
Now alone with my pain and ghostly regrets
the only words left - are the words unsaid.

There's a part of us that is bound forever
by the feelings we shared every time we kissed
like a leaf swept upwards by the horizon's wind
I am floating, rising higher, much higher than I've ever been.

But now you're gone enwrapped by hypnotic grace
I fall away from you, on this rock, that's become my place
cursing life, repenting, regretting with every tear I shed
to my soul 'tis my prison I share with words left unsaid.
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I don't know who you wrote that poem for - if you wrote it for anyone in particular at all - but I can say that there are many words left unsaid by all of us. I would like to say that I admired your spirit and the life you infused into your posts. It lingers within, we can still feel your living words. Through your blog you have opened a window to your world, and you have touched and influenced the lives of so many. Can you even count them all? Let me show you (though inevitably I've missed a few):

AJ: Goodbye Razz
Col: Farewell to Razz!
Doug: Razz
E: Razz, Remembered
goleftatthefork: Remembrance
Highwayman: Remembering a Brother Blogger
Jay.osa: To a friend lost
Ken: comfort ............ for Chris
Lunatic Ninja: Doin' Me Head In
Naturgesetz: Razz; In Memoriam: Razz
Seth: Loss of Fellow Blogger...
Sethy: It's always a sad thing
Shane: Thank you and goodbye Razz
Steevo: Fond Farewell to Razz
Torchy!: Remembering Razz

I hope one day I will feel I've lived the perfect life as you described it. And as you said in this post, "[W]hatever is beyond death, may we all get the version that we wish for." May your ashes be scattered to the winds in the places most dear to you and your family and close friends.
Farewell Razz (Chris), you are never forgotten. March 26, 2009.
In Memory Of Razz

10 comments:

torchy! said...

beautiful tribute Aek. like you, i found out that i've got all, or most, of his posts in my reader. there's many that i've not read before.

best wishes to you
torchy!

cvn70 said...

AEK

very nice and thanks for all the links

take care and be safe

bob

Hypnos said...

OK, I didn't read his post and I don't get it. What happened with him? I'm bit scare cause this sounds like he's dead :(

torchy! said...

@hypnos: not sure what timezone Aek is in, so i'll answer: i'm afraid Razz has passed away. naturgesetz broke the news on his blog and there's more on mine as well as the others. we're both in the list here.

take care
torchy!

Hypnos said...

OMG, so sad... It sounds that he was a nice guy... :(

naturgesetz said...

I never even noticed Google Reader before. Unfortunately, I didn't even start officially following blogs until fairly recently. I just relied on the lists on other people's blogs. The result is that I don't have Razz'z posts in my Reader. So if someone can locate the post about becoming friends with Ste and e-mail me a copy, I'd very much appreciate it.

naturgesetz said...

And that is a very fine tribute, Aek.

mstpbound said...

Dx of bone cancer and passing away of pneumonia in a young male...sounds like osteosarcoma of the femur with acute neutropenic pneumonia due to immunosuppressive chemo side-effects? :( I hope his family is holding up okay....

naturgesetz said...

@mstpbound — one more detail: the cancer had metastasized to his lungs

E said...

Amazing tribute to Razz. I am absolutely sure that he would have some snide comment about us all being so sad!